OK, I'm currently on UPSB, and I have realized I completely fail at pen spinning. My life is incomplete ... or rather, I'm lacking one. Anyway ...
These days, my main source of entertainment comes from, directly and indirectly, guys. I've got crushes on three (and yes, they are ordered) and it's bugging me that guys are such guys. Go awaaaaaaay -.-
On the bright side, it's nice to move to a new school, where no one knows you, and be able to recreate yourself. Not to mention, I'm barely even considered smart now. And yes, that's a good thing.
I'm too distracted by pen-spinning to continue ... heading off to use the full extent of my mental powers to make this pen cooperate.
xoxo
burningdarkfire
10.24.2009
10.13.2009
Take The Trail More Traveled
I've decided to take the easier road, where I can lie less and obsess (yes, obsess) more.
So now, I "officially" like (G)2.
And unfortunately, I'm way too hyper to write coherently, so I'll have to come back to this sometime.
Off to shower, text, write, and sleep.
xoxo
burningdarkfire
So now, I "officially" like (G)2.
And unfortunately, I'm way too hyper to write coherently, so I'll have to come back to this sometime.
Off to shower, text, write, and sleep.
xoxo
burningdarkfire
10.07.2009
Dedication, Love, and Confusion?
As I'm sure you've figured out, I'm a very dedicated, persistent person. As I'm sure you've also figured out, I'm a big fan of sarcasm (and for the record, I CAN be dedicated and persistent ... I just need a good reason).
So I thought it over, and realized it would be beyond pointless to use this blog like a diary. So why not just use it for those rants that I can't use on anyone? Only one person has this site's address, and well ... I did give it to her.
Just wanted to say ... completely over (G)1.
Also, someone has recently re-entered my life. (G)2 and I were never super close friends, but since he got a cellphone we've been texting a lot, and he referred to us as best friends. I don't know what to say to that ... I just responded in kind, but it's not quite the truth. Also, he is a huge fan of saying "ilu." It's incredibly sweet and all that, but it also gets awkward sometimes. Once again, I always respond in kind, but it's definitely not the truth.
The thing is, he's made me think a lot. If I may say so, he has fantasies about love and claims to have fallen in love already, and more than once he's mourned the fact he hasn't been able to hold a steady relationship for long.
Let me just say this: personally, I don't really believe in love. Sometimes, I look around at the older couples and think, that has to be love. Then I look at the statistics of divorces, look at everyday life, look at the boys around me. Then I think, no way does love actually exist. Maybe lust, maybe physical desires, maybe even mental connections. Love? No thanks. If it is out there, and if it does find me ... I have no plans to get married or have kids until I have a steady career, if ever.
Back to (G)2, let's just say I don't believe we're at the age that we should be looking for love, or even expecting long-term relationships. We almost got into a fight over it, then the next morning, he texted me saying, "good morning :) ilu." It's hard to resist his sweetness sometimes. We talk on the phone often now, and I look forward to hearing from him.
This week, he's on vacation and his cell isn't with him, which mean I haven't been able to talk to him at all. The thing is, I've been thinking about him a lot, and I don't know why. I told him before, when we were discussing how "dateable" he was, that I would date him if he asked me, and it's true. The thing is, I don't "like" him that way ... but I don't just simply like him as a friend either. So basically, I'm very confused.
Off to catch some zzz's, and hopefully get more stories written tonight.
xoxo
burningdarkfire
So I thought it over, and realized it would be beyond pointless to use this blog like a diary. So why not just use it for those rants that I can't use on anyone? Only one person has this site's address, and well ... I did give it to her.
Just wanted to say ... completely over (G)1.
Also, someone has recently re-entered my life. (G)2 and I were never super close friends, but since he got a cellphone we've been texting a lot, and he referred to us as best friends. I don't know what to say to that ... I just responded in kind, but it's not quite the truth. Also, he is a huge fan of saying "ilu." It's incredibly sweet and all that, but it also gets awkward sometimes. Once again, I always respond in kind, but it's definitely not the truth.
The thing is, he's made me think a lot. If I may say so, he has fantasies about love and claims to have fallen in love already, and more than once he's mourned the fact he hasn't been able to hold a steady relationship for long.
Let me just say this: personally, I don't really believe in love. Sometimes, I look around at the older couples and think, that has to be love. Then I look at the statistics of divorces, look at everyday life, look at the boys around me. Then I think, no way does love actually exist. Maybe lust, maybe physical desires, maybe even mental connections. Love? No thanks. If it is out there, and if it does find me ... I have no plans to get married or have kids until I have a steady career, if ever.
Back to (G)2, let's just say I don't believe we're at the age that we should be looking for love, or even expecting long-term relationships. We almost got into a fight over it, then the next morning, he texted me saying, "good morning :) ilu." It's hard to resist his sweetness sometimes. We talk on the phone often now, and I look forward to hearing from him.
This week, he's on vacation and his cell isn't with him, which mean I haven't been able to talk to him at all. The thing is, I've been thinking about him a lot, and I don't know why. I told him before, when we were discussing how "dateable" he was, that I would date him if he asked me, and it's true. The thing is, I don't "like" him that way ... but I don't just simply like him as a friend either. So basically, I'm very confused.
Off to catch some zzz's, and hopefully get more stories written tonight.
xoxo
burningdarkfire
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